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“WE BROTHERS ARE THE FORGOTTEN;
THOSE NO ONE EVER ASKS ABOUT.
WE ARE THOSE NO ONE SEEMS TO CARE ABOUT.
THIS IS WHY WE SHUT DOWN;
WHY WE TUMBLE DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE AND NEVER TO RETURN.
OR WORSE, WE COMMIT SUICIDE.

NICK “KEEPER” CATRAN–WHITNEY

This is the story of how we brothers from across the world react when we learn our sisters have been sexually molested. It is how we embrace the full weight of guilt and shame for the rest of our lives, because we had been unable to protect them. It is a story about the overwhelming, dark emotional struggles brothers endure when we learn we did not save our sisters. It is about what happens when no one asks us how we are doing.

“I thought I had saved the twins, but I was mistaken. The one thing I believed to be true, was not true at all. Thirty years later, I learned he had gotten to them long before I could save them. My sisters didn’t’ tell me. I had failed them. I had failed them all!”

I have a dark secret. A secret no brother wants to talk about. Ever! My older brother and I had been sexually molested for months by our babysitter at age six and seven, and our mother had known about it! Years later, I learned my four sisters had been sexually molested, and one was even raped, for over ten years by our step-father. All the years he was molesting my sisters, he was enabled by the one person many who knew our family called perfect: our mother!

Six of the eight children in my family had felt the sting of betrayal and our mother knew the whole time, but had done nothing to prevent it. We were the singing group, “The Whitney Family,” on the verge of music stardom, but the weight of shame, guilt, and intense pressure brought on by my mother and stepfather silenced us.

This is the story of the ultimate betrayal: child sex crimes over a twenty-year period of my life and how the tragedy impacted generations. It is the story of how, over thirty years ago, with my weapon just ten feet away, I confronted my stepfather, ready to kill him or die trying, to save my two youngest sisters from him only to find out two years ago he beat me to them after all. Ultimately, I had failed. I failed the twins. I failed my four sisters. I failed them all. I failed myself.

It is my story about being utterly helpless, as I searched for hopefulness from wherever I could find it only to find happiness in the most unexpected place – within.

“You have twenty-four hours to leave this house. If, you are still here by this time tomorrow you will be dead for I will have killed you.”

From Helplessness To Hopefulness To Happiness
Book One

HELPLESSNESS

WHAT HAPPENS TO BROTHERS WHEN WE FIND OUT?

What Goes Through The Mind Of A Brother
When He Learns His Sisters Have Been
Sexually Molested For Years By Their Step-Father?
What Goes Through The Mind Of A Brother
When He Learns Of A Decades-Long Cover-Up
By His Mother, Betraying Him And His Seven Siblings?
What Happens When The Family Involved Is
On The Verge Of Mega Music Stardom?
What Happens When A Brother Confronts The Monster?
How Does A Brother Cope With Forty Years Of
Guilt, Pain And Shame?

“WE BROTHERS ARE THE FORGOTTEN;
THOSE NO ONE EVER ASKS ABOUT.
WE ARE THOSE NO ONE SEEMS TO CARE ABOUT.
THIS IS WHY WE SHUT DOWN;
WHY WE TUMBLE DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE AND NEVER TO RETURN.
OR WORSE, WE COMMIT SUICIDE.

NICK “KEEPER” CATRAN–WHITNEY

This is the story of how we brothers from across the world react when we learn our sisters have been sexually molested. It is how we embrace the full weight of guilt and shame for the rest of our lives, because we had been unable to protect them. It is a story about the overwhelming, dark emotional struggles brothers endure when we learn we did not save our sisters. It is about what happens when no one asks us how we are doing.

“I thought I had saved the twins, but I was mistaken. The one thing I believed to be true, was not true at all. Thirty years later, I learned he had gotten to them long before I could save them. My sisters didn’t’ tell me. I had failed them. I had failed them all!”

I have a dark secret. A secret no brother wants to talk about. Ever! My older brother and I had been sexually molested for months by our babysitter at age six and seven, and our mother had known about it! Years later, I learned my four sisters had been sexually molested, and one was even raped, for over ten years by our step-father. All the years he was molesting my sisters, he was enabled by the one person many who knew our family called perfect: our mother!

Six of the eight children in my family had felt the sting of betrayal and our mother knew the whole time, but had done nothing to prevent it. We were the singing group, “The Whitney Family,” on the verge of music stardom, but the weight of shame, guilt, and intense pressure brought on by my mother and stepfather silenced us.

This is the story of the ultimate betrayal: child sex crimes over a twenty-year period of my life and how the tragedy impacted generations. It is the story of how, over thirty years ago, with my weapon just ten feet away, I confronted my stepfather, ready to kill him or die trying, to save my two youngest sisters from him only to find out two years ago he beat me to them after all. Ultimately, I had failed. I failed the twins. I failed my four sisters. I failed them all. I failed myself.

It is my story about being utterly helpless, as I searched for hopefulness from wherever I could find it only to find happiness in the most unexpected place – within.

“You have twenty-four hours to leave this house. If, you are still here by this time tomorrow you will be dead for I will have killed you.”